21 Mar 2012

Muse


He often lied about his job because no-one would believe the truth. It was far easier to just give them a flat, appraising stare and say something like "Bailiff" or "tax accountant" and end the discussion then and there. Most people quickly backed off after that and that suited him just fine.

I mean, who'd believe the truth? Just look at him: six-foot four of shaven-headed, tattooed surliness. He seemed more likely to be a mugger than a Muse.

It was hard work to be honest, but someone had to do it. People thought that a Muse was just a metaphor, an anthropomorphic personification of artistic inspiration that just "happened". A fickle moment that struck out of the blue.

Utter bollocks.

Giving someone a tiny, perfect seed of inspiration was a matter of psychology, subtlety and above all, timing. So even though it looked as though he was spending three-quarters of his time doing nothing, he was actually waiting for precisely the right moment to say precisely the right thing to precisely the right person.

Last week, for example, he'd stood outside a pub in Islington for forty-five minutes with a bunch of tulips before presenting them to a small, rumpled fifty-ish man as he wobbled his way out.

"Be happy" he'd said to the man, "She'd want you to be happy". Then he turned smartly on his heel and walked off, leaving the man blinking at the flowers, the scent of them waking long-forgotten pain and love within him. That evening the small, rumpled man would go home and write what would become one of the most moving and heartfelt elegiac poems of the 21st century.

The week before that he'd had to deliberately bump into a promising young playwright on his way home and start an argument about the irrelevance of iambic pentameter. The week before THAT, he'd "accidentally" left a rambling, seemingly incoherent message on the mobile of a woman in Prague who'd later go on to develop a breakthrough in the treatment of Alzheimer’s.

So yes, it was tricky work with odd hours and little thanks, but at least the pay was decent…

19 Jan 2012

Writing what you know


I don't know if this is true for everyone, but I find that it's more difficult to write about intense personal experiences than about fiction. It shouldn't be, logically. After all, the facts are all there to hand, right? You don't actually have to make anything up or, y'know, be creative. But when you're writing about something you've been in the thick of, something that has affected you deeply and permanently, it becomes harder to self-edit.

It suddenly becomes vital that you perfectly express every tiny nuance of what you felt, otherwise it doesn't seem true, or seems flat and emotionless and devoid of the intensity that so affected you in the first place. So many words, images and impressions come rushing to the fore that you struggle to bully them into some semblance of order and make them line up coherently on the page.

In case you're wondering what the hell I'm on about, I visited Libya in April of last year, during the thick of the fighting. After weeks of watching the slaughter of civilians on TV, the tipping point came when I learnt that we'd lost a family member during fighting in Brega. At that point I couldn't take it anymore, so I bought a backpack and sleeping bag from an army surplus shop, packed what gear I thought I'd need in the desert, and headed on the long road to Benghazi.

I really had absolutely no idea what I was doing or how much of a difference I could really make. I didn't know where I'd be sleeping or how long it would take to get there - I only knew I had to do something more than passively watch the horror play out on the news.

So I went.

The trip left me with some indelible images that I'm still struggling to come to terms with, and I think writing will help me through some of that, but it's difficult. Sometimes writing what you know really is tougher than writing what you don't...

10 Jan 2012

100 words for a good cause

The unutterably lovely Caroline Smailes, author extraordinaire, has come up with a great idea to get people writing and supporting a worthy charity at the same time. Details are at Caroline's site here, but essentially it's a flash fiction competition in which the winners get published in an ebook and the money raised goes to support One in Foura registered charity which provides support and resources to people who have experienced sexual abuse and sexual violence.


All stories should be no longer than 100 words and inspired by a song that's on YouTube, so here's my humble submission. Wish me luck!

She looked up at me as we lay in the field, the sun warm on my back and the sweet smell of dry grass enveloping us. She'd just said the magic word, her cheeks flushed and her eyes bright with the risk she'd taken.


"I love you."


I looked down at her, at the way she bit her bottom lip, at her hair strewn in a fan of silken ebony. I could practically hear her heart thudding in her chest. Did I love her back? I leant down and we melted into kiss that shook the world.


'Course I did.


Inspired by "Fields of Gold" by Sting